And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street

Sunday, July 31, 2005 { 7/31/2005 07:17:00 PM }

FINALLY

29th July 2005. 6.15pm. Anglo-Chinese School (Barker Road). Admin Block. Full Uniform. Sec 3 Squad. ACNP's 10th Batch. Aylwin Gan.

The passing out parade of the Drill Cane to Jerry of my squad. There we are.... standing there. With great satisfactory. The day has come... After 3 long years, we will now take over the Unit and we shall lead the cadets and everyone to a greater height and a whole new level. We will do our best and to fulfill our duties as NCO to the greatest and fullest of our capabilities and abilities. Thank you to the ACNP 9th Batch for guilding us to becoming to what we are till today.
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Yes. ROD night was fine. But I was the Master of Ceremony and I did a screwed job. Sorry abt everything guys. =X Its not an easy job. Aiya... I dun wanna eleborate more of it......
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Chalet Day 1: Yes! It was fun. The first night me, bean, mouse, kaynakin, pooku, and other 2 squadmates of mine walked to Mcds for supper. It was around 12 midnight. Then we walked back to the Coasta Sands Resort. I was half awake-half asleep (more like zombie lar) and walking back at the same time. When we reached there....we slacked down abit rest. Bean went to talk on the phone...talking to HER. He and I were in da room alone... he trusts me so like he just talked like nobody's business and I was folding straw stars lor..hahahah. Wu-liao.

Soon, most of us came up the room. We all starting taupoking with each other. It was damn funny lar... hahah. one after another after another...Then off we go to sleep....the rest of the night's details are classified.

Day2: Woke up early, go rent bikes for the whole day till 10pm. Not to mention after getting ready certain things, it began to rained heavily. Me, bean and Fergus got caught in da rain. Super soaked. You dun wanna know what we did while cycling our back to the chalet...

Everything prepared... people start coming. It was night time. B4 returning our bike, me and 2 other Ex-Nco (Andrew and Edrick). I'll talk abt this another time. Must blog this down in real details. *grins saddistically*

But it was an okie BBQ. I'll talk next time lar. Real shagged. Only gotten 3hrs of sleep. Be back to blog again!

Wheeeeee~!!! Woo-hooo!!!

-ayl. - [Lordtootz]

Tuesday, July 26, 2005 { 7/26/2005 08:49:00 PM }

ayl is getting more and more tired these days... Sigh.

Many things are happening. Many trainings going on. ROD Ceremony just around the damn corner. Chalet just this saturday...and...something else. SIGH AGAIN.

ayl needs to get some rest now. He's really tired out after today's NDP tryouts and ROD practice.

erm. ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls... 3 more days. ((:

'Wheeeee...~' ??? *Blur look*

-Ayl.- [Lordtootz] had retired to his neglected bed....

Monday, July 25, 2005 { 7/25/2005 05:22:00 PM }

ayl has gone... werid.

ayl stayed back in school today with his mouse bradder, Jerry. Why? To look at girls. Crazy eh?

Girls (aka guests of the prefectorial board investigue) came to our school. Me and jerry after school stayed back to look at them. (How despo can i get?) But got chio-bu....so i tagged along with Jerry.

Done many nonsense.... then later...we just go home. All tired out. Super heavy rain and my bus came... my other squadmate came up with me... we talked why he and I stayed back in school....He got detention while I was doing girl-watching with Jerry.

Board the bus and guess who i saw....my boss. KAO. She was at the back of the bus wheras I'm in da front. I shouted at her abt...3 times? (Freakin PAISEH. People looked at me and my squadmate think I siao-ding-dong.) But she just kept turning away and talking to her friend. So didn't continue calling out as also interrupt their conversation. Rather rude like that. So i continued talking to my friend.

Thats all lar. Bought my KFC lunch then here I am at my grandma's hse...TIRED like 'fish' today.

ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls.... 4 more days. (((:

Shout-outs:

Jerry: We had fun and great sight-seeing didn't we? =PP And your St. Margrets friend is cute. You should go for it... =D You have my greatest support.

Aud aka boss: SORRIE LAR! at least I tried.... ): sob.

Wow-Wheeeee~ (Quit 'whee-ing' and go practise your damn speech.)

-ayl. - [Lordtootz]

Saturday, July 23, 2005 { 7/23/2005 08:59:00 PM }

*Touches hand* Huh???

*Touches face and pinches it* Ouch...

Is this true? I'm back...alive? Wow... I'm alive!! Woo-hoo! (Yeah yeah,....lame. Thats me. =P )

Nco camp was a little bitch. First thing is that, lectures are really tortures but they make good sleeping pills just that you can't sleep. Wasted huh? At least learning of advanced drill is fun....yeah. fun. Sleeping overnight is the next torture treatment there. Yes yes, one night only but...

put it this way. if you dun sleep under the fan, you're gonna flood the damn room with your sweat. However, if you sleep under the fan, you're gonna freeze to death or wake up at least 5 times in da middle of the night. I faced that problem... So I chose to sleep under the fan and wear my track pants when I woke up for the 3rd time. B4 we actually sleep, I shared my sleeping bag with Bean and Poo-siang. Poo was....gaying with bean. Lol. I was sleeping at the side....so Poo was in da middle and he ah-hum*ing with bean. Bean was screaming away lar.... hahahah. alright alright, 'Nuff said.

SHAGGED. ayl wanna sleep. bye bye. ((:

ladies and gentlemen..... 6 more days! Woooo-hooooo

Wheeeeeee~ (sleep lar! still want to 'whee'. )

-ayl. - [lordtootz]

Thursday, July 21, 2005 { 7/21/2005 09:27:00 PM }

ladies and gentlemen... 8 more days. *Grins-grins*

Off for camp for Friday and Saturday. Nco camp.....the longest 2-days-1-night-camp ever...Here I come... 'Woop-pee~'.

Wheeee....(My ass lar)

-ayl. - [Lordtootz]

Tuesday, July 19, 2005 { 7/19/2005 10:26:00 PM }

DAMN that god-damnit-geography teacher of mine. Tectonic plates, tectonic plates, tectonic PLATES. BASKET... She's really F.O.S. Getting on my nerves.

My Skin...is peeeeeeeling. But my arms hurts... still burnt.

And so... Ladies & Gentlemen, 10 more days. ((:

Wheeeeee....again.

-ayl. - [Lordtootz]

Sunday, July 17, 2005 { 7/17/2005 07:42:00 PM }

MY FACE IS VERY PAIN. KNN.

(Sheet...) But I got my 1-star skill cert. swee. Now we can rent kayak for ourself too.

Wheeeee.

-Ayl. - [Lordtootz]

Thursday, July 14, 2005 { 7/14/2005 08:32:00 PM }

*Coughs* *Coughs More*... *Coughs Somemore*...

Ayl is seriously down with a horrible flu.

He's suffering with cloged-up nose, jumpy fever, choked-up-throat-which-leaves-me-breathless and of course...the crazy aches. How could I forget that. Sigh. The flu-bug is getting everyone. (@#*& that damn bug). Make sure everyone drinks lotsa lotsa water!! Take my advice or else it will be too late.

I want to address one damn big issue here. That NKF dude. I dunno what you guys think but this is really tooooo much. That bloody idiot.

He use the charity money to fly first class aeroplane. He is a charity company boss...where the fish does he need to fly to!? *Slaps forehead* And think as if fly over to other country will donate money also...basket. And seriously lar.....you wanna take an airplane flight... dun take first class!!! Your damn butt is sitting on first class's seat using DONATION MONEY. (You *toot* !!!)

KAO. You get 10-12 months bonus. You know Fking know how much is that!!!??? KNN. Every year adds up to 500k-600k??? So everytime on NKF charity show when adds up to $6k will just cover his damn salary?! *Slaps forehead again*.... Even all my parents plus my parents' friends combine salaries cannot meet your match. And they donate money to your company. Aurgh... (You freakin saddist)

...Basket... I better not talk any more. Or else there'll be vuglarities coming out of me you had never heard b4. Sigh. Good thing I heard from news he just resigned...thats good...But I still support charity to help people but....with this kind of fellow taking charge of things this way? Have to think twice... Thats enuff lar. Really getting abit worse. I still have training tmr. Need rest for now.

Shout-outs:

-Celinee: Heyyy... Thx for being there for me and helping me out in whatever you can. You really changed from last time I must say... A total change... Now I feel really bad just making you help me out in so much things... Sigh. But I must say that you're one great gal. I'm just one fortunate fellow to have you as a friend. Hope one day I could repay you back in some way. Thx for everything... I appreciate it. =)) God bless you.

-Mouse: You good eh? Pon school same time as me. Yesterday suppose to pon one day together only ending up we also pon the NEXT day too! But take care of yourself too yeah? =)

Thats all peeps. Thx 4 readi and God Bless! (Except the damn Flu-bug..I know...'Lame')

-Ayl. - [Lordtootz]

Monday, July 11, 2005 { 7/11/2005 09:51:00 PM }

ayl. is sick. Down with a flu? School today was an ass. Had this bag check because someone lost his wallet during P.O.A class. KNN. Any unauthorized items (MP3 and handphone w/o a pass, etc.) will be confiscated. Basket....

So no one owned up of who has taken the wallet. So after P.O.A class, our co-form teacher wants a bag-check. NB... everyone panic. Some peeps while on the way down to the tennis court... quickly pass their stuff to those people they know. So my new handphone and mp3 were shoved in my underwear. (Eh... not funny man, it was freakin uncomfortable!)

I was suey. i didnt get meet pple which i know. And so we had the bag-check marathon.. All the prefects and monitors in da class had to search da bags. Good thing most of them we friend-friend.

As we waited... the chemistry teacher came down... helped us. We're supposed to have his period. So the good thing is we get to skip chemistry. But my ass was still feeling totally uncomfortable.

Everybody had their pockets and bags searched. Some were caught with handphones with no pass. Suey. Lucky they can't touch my ass. One fellow was caught with a condom in his wallet. i mean like WTF?! 'nuff said. it was bad enuff having to know the dudes keeps condom in their wallet.. *Brrrr*

So we all sat down. Awaiting for news and i was feeling unwell. During PE earlier on... had to run around my school and after first round... I couldnt breathe properly. Ending up having trouble running and kena being one of the failures for the first time. *Sigh*. Good thing i let the teacher know b4 hand.

So back to the back-check incident. The fellow who lost his wallet had to have his bag search. While he was taking out his stuff....one of my classmate saw something in between the papers. AND DAMNIT.

You guessed right. it was in his bag all along. KAO... @$!^&*@ him man!!!!! KNN. bloody hell you know. He's lucky im good enuff not to be racist towards him....

Alright. thats all for now. I'm not feeling very well now. Body's aching and stuff. Just one cough leads my chest to having pain. Sigh. Suey...

Thats all pple. Bye.
*Sick* -Ayl. - [Lordtootz]

Saturday, July 09, 2005 { 7/09/2005 10:41:00 PM }

ha...............................ha..

ayl. face it. you lost the battle. no one can really help you except if you help yourself. you're just kinda hopeless eh? well...laugh at it. laugh. laugh at your own damn self. you're really hopeless. now you have to regret even a lot more than ever. ayl.... i dunno what to say abt you. i have totally nothing much to say.

if you think you claimed high dignity or pride in this case....you're maybe putting shame in it instead. Ayl....pls wake up.

[ayl. gone for the highest of da highest cliffs for reflection. maybe more like for some hiding to face pple]

-ayl. - [lordtootz] - damn yourself.

Friday, July 08, 2005 { 7/08/2005 10:24:00 PM }

Dang... I'm werid.

That feeling is coming back again.... that very particular feeling is back again. I just had that feeling. Don't ask me what is it. i'm also trying to figure it out too. sigh.

and yes... total defence and neighbourhood-watch test today. crapped the talking man. i don't have a clue what its trying to question me. i was staring at it and the words started jumping around the paper... *brrr*. its both a confirmed fail test. no more badges liao. damn you man. damn the stuu-pid tests.

hmmm... and i totally broke my arms and legs and knees and upper body. Now i'm feeling okie after a bath but when tmr morning comes... the hell of aches starts... poor me man. not me. my body arh. Me and poosiang were like.... doing all the standard one. meaning no cheating lar. 80+ push-ups (All da way down somemore) and 90+ sit-ups. Auurggh.... the pain we both suffered were horrible!... pls give us your condolence...

but heck. 2-3more parades and we are in control. (: NCO... nice title. thats all then...

One particular shoutout:
--to a very good friend of mine.
* hey, i dunno wassup and all but.... yeah. i hope you're doing fine. well, its just that its been a really long time since we both talked to each other for a while. its like we only just exchanged hi once in a blue moon or something. Sigh. but yes... i missed the days we both crapped a hell lot... but if there's anything you're angry with me, pls tell me but i shall apologise to you now. Sincerely sorry to you. Sigh. Okie, i think i'm being really sucky with words here. thats me lar. sorry abt it. Take care of yourself... hope things will change for the better. ((: God bless you. (Although i doubt you know who you are).

Bye everyone! Take care and God bless.
-Ayl. - [Lordtootz]

Tuesday, July 05, 2005 { 7/05/2005 06:11:00 PM }

Scenario 1:

You are standing beside a rail switch. There is 2 rail tracks, A & B. A train is now moving down track A. At track A, there is 3 men tied to the rail and they will 100% die if the train continue down the track. At track B, there is 1 guy tied to the rail, and he will 100% die if you pull the switch and let the train move down Track B.

U must assume, there is nothing else u can do, and they will die depending on ur decision. So will u pull the switch or not?

Scenario 1A:

Will ur decision change if there are 10 men, 100 men, 1000 men at track A?

Scenario 2:

You are a doc. You have a perfectly healthy patient, and 3 dying patients suffering from different organ failures. And during a medical checkup where all 4 patients are unconsicous, u discovered that the 1 healthy guy's organs are a perfect match for the other 3 dying patients.

Assuming, u are able to operate one all of them and the operations will be 100% successful, and there will be 100% recovery and medical ethics do not applies (the law will not be enforced). Will u operate on the healthy guy and save the other 3. The healthy guy will 100% die. Assuming u have no chance to ask or consider, just like Scenario 1.

What will be ur decision?

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All of us face many kind of situations in life. Be it good or bad, life or death... We will all experience it one day. (: Make a wise choice in life...

Here's another scenario:

Which one will you choose? A group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused. Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track. The train came, and you were just beside the track interchange. You could make the train change its course to the disused track and saved most of the kids.

However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed. Or would you rather let the train go its way?

Let's take a pause to think what kind of decision we could make.

Most people might choose to divert the course of the train, and sacrifice only one child. You might think the same way, I guess.

Exactly, I thought the same way initially because to save most of the children at the expense of only one child was rational decision most people would make, morally and emotionally.

But, have you ever thought that the child choosing to play on the disused track had in fact made the right decision to play at a safe place?

Nevertheless, he had to be sacrificed because of his ignorant friends who chose to play where the danger was. This kind of dilemma happens around us everyday. In the office, community, in politics and especially in a democratic society, the minority is often sacrificed for the interest of the majority, no matter how foolish or ignorant the majority are, and how farsighted and knowledgeable the minority are.

The child who chose not to play with the rest on the operational track was sidelined. And in the case he was sacrificed, no one would shed a tear for him.

The friend who forwarded me the story said he would not try to change the course of the train because he believed that the kids playing on the operational track should have known very well that track was still in use, and that they should have run away if they heard the train's sirens.

If the train was diverted, that lone child would definitely die because he never thought the train could come over to that track! Moreover, that track was not in use probably because it was not safe. If the train was diverted to the track, we could put the lives of all passengers on board at stake! And in your attempt to save a few kids by sacrificing one child, you might end up sacrificing hundreds of people to save these few kids.

While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realize that hasty decisions may not always be the right one.

"Remember that what's right isn't always popular... and what's popular isn't always right."

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thats all...thax 4 readi and god bless!
-Ayl. - [Lordtootz] =))

Monday, July 04, 2005 { 7/04/2005 10:09:00 PM }

At school, a boy was told by a classmate that most adults are hiding at least one dark secret, and that this makes it very easy to blackmail them by saying, "I know the whole truth". The boy decides to go home and try it out.He goes home, and as he is greeted by his mother he says, "I know the whole truth."His mother quickly hands him $20 and says, "Just don't tell your father."Quite pleased, the boy waits for his father to get home from work, and greets him with, "I know the whole truth."The father promptly hands him $40 and says, "Please don't say a word to your mother."Very pleased, the boy is on his way to school the next day, when he sees the mailman at his front door. The boy greets him by saying, "I know the whole truth."The mailman drops the mail, opens his arms, and says, "Then come give your FATHER a big hug."

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Morale? Hahaha... Somethings are better left unsaid than said. =)

Thats all people and a Happy Youth Day to all! School begins again tmr. Study hard and play hard!

TC & God bless!
-Ayl. - [Lordtootz]

Saturday, July 02, 2005 { 7/02/2005 06:11:00 PM }

' Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities you have crept in; Forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely, and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your own nonsense. '

' Don't life discourage you; Everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was. '

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I believe what these phrases are saying are rather right. Maybe my life is starting off sucky, but there's a new start everyday. Think positive. There could be a reason to begin this way. We may not know why right now but God started it this way for a purpose. Maybe not now, maybe not tomorrow but one day when we would understand. Think positive...don't let one big or small... ruin your life. When you fall, God will be there to pick you up and you carry it on. Believe in yourself and don't lose the faith and hope in it... Friends will be there to help to support you. =)

I finally understand this. I know things are really getting out of hand for me, but forget those bad things...put it behind you.. Tomorrow is a new day... God is always with you. ( And I hope you know who you are.... my bestest friend.I wish you could understand it this way... Life's not over after that incident.) ((:

Thx 4 Reading peeps and God bless!

And I want to end off with a good phrase too.:

'We cannot tell what may happen to us in the strange medley of life.But we can decide what happen in us,how we take it,what we do with it-& thats what really counts in da end.'

Ps: Squadmates... thanks for your help. Thanks for being part of my life. You're really the best of the best of friends I could ever have. God bless you. =)