And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street

Friday, December 30, 2005 { 12/30/2005 09:04:00 PM }

Just came back from Jurong East. lol. Met up with hy for a while to go accompany her to the library and have tea break (at KFC) with her? hahaha

Yeah... we talked and it was a stupid talk and such. She just loveeeees being random, corny and sacastic. Lol. And she told me 2 hilarious stories of her. Whenever I kept thinking about it, I just keep laughing my head off. =P

After a long-short chat, we went off. She alighted at Celmenti and I realised I needed to go to toilet and i nearly flooded. In fact, I nearly went to the female's toilet but I was saved by a phonecall then I knew i went to the wrong place. =X

Lol. I'm a joke.

Last night, had starbucks with dianne, jerry and bean. We talked and laughed our heart out at Bugis Starbucks. Hahaha... Yeah. My ice mocha and Jerry's $7 coffee made us stay up till 4am to do finish our uniform. This morning, we only had about 2hours of sleep. Then, ushering in the morning... =/

Hmmm... Hahaha. Yeah. So far, so good. But holidays are about to end soon. Very soon.... (basket).

Shoutouts:

hy: heyy... glad to go accompany you today just now. lol. And quit boasting about your new stuff you were wearing today. Yeah... one day i shall wear all new clothes too and boast it to you. Rarr. But still, thnks for the fun-chat today. (:

Jerry: -GRINS SHEEPISHLY. LOL. LALALA. heh...Will be praying for you. ((:

thnks for reading all and god bless.
'aylwin-

{ 12/30/2005 03:45:00 AM }

' Vida, Give me back my fantasy
The courage that I need to live,
The air that I breathe.
Cariño mio, my world's become so empty.
The days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste,
The purest of pain '

Something is missing in me. I have no idea what it is.
Those lyrics somehow explain how I'm feeling now.

And is this current status....its what I want for now?
I somehow feel free... but this freedom made me feel 'lost'.
Missing of something.
Is it love?
or just my imagination?

I really want a friend. A friend which i can just pour out all my details.
My brothers are great. but i just want a friend i can probably just pour out my feelings unto.. someone who can listen to me. Yeah... a good, special friend.

Sigh...

and its freaking 3am+

'aylwin-

Wednesday, December 28, 2005 { 12/28/2005 10:40:00 PM }

Today was fun.

Woke up, went to school... found out i got sore throat. And yeah, everyone turned sick!
I got a small cold and a sore throat.
Jerry said he got sore throat too.
Caine got sore throat also.
Bean got fever, sore throat and blah which is also known as flu.
GREAT.

Went for training. Bean sit out. He was an extra. Wearing jerry's thick jacket under the hot sun.
Training was kinda tough. nearly 6 hours of training. Siong but just SIONG.

Ended around 7.30, 4 of us went to Taka. Caine had to collect his spects. He looked COOL! Black and white. He looks quite different man. RETRO in fact. ((:

Then we rushed down to food court. CROWDED. Basket.... All of us were starving. No lunch. After 45mins of waiting which was a miracle, finally gotten a seat. Then we cheong for mixed rice. We ate and talked abit. Then left to go body shop. Caine bought no-idea-what gloves and then cold storage to get bread. In the end, never bought. Then bean dad lifted us home.

On the way, we were all talking something stupid. About taxi driving and opening our own company and starting price is $1 so we can fight with other taxis. LOL.

It was mad, but we all had a fun day. ((: I'm glad to have them as brothers.

thnks for reading all and god bless.
And did i mention? My sister got me a leather quiksilver wallet! Woo. Thnks sis. (:

'aylwin-

Tuesday, December 27, 2005 { 12/27/2005 10:06:00 PM }

Today was an outing with the 4 of us. And plus dianne's friends.

Bowling plus pool. Yeah. I'm ready to play bowling with anyone. Hahaha. Gimme a 9 pounds ball and I'm ready to kick ass. :p
Pool, I'm finally improving. I pooped in many balls but I just CANNOT win. DAMN.

And yeah, irritated stuff happened so I somehow got really tulan with Dianne's friends.

After that, I left early. Went home and down to town to meet my classmate and my ex-teacher, Joy Low! Haha.

Yes, all of us were undecisive of where to eat and where to go later.
And she helped us to buy me and keith a 'drink'. Bercardi breezer(peach) and Jim Bean Cola for keith. Yeah... it was nice. But for no funny reason, I just got abit high.

Even took videos. Hilarious videos and all. Hahaha. Yeah. Then we left tanglin and off to home.

Thats all. But yeah, the starting of the day was irritating but at the end of the day, it was great. ((:

'aylwin-

Monday, December 26, 2005 { 12/26/2005 10:19:00 PM }

We're nuts
We're crazy
We're mad
We're cold (some claimed to be hot :P )
We're lame
We're True & Best Brothers.
Always.

J. A. C. E.

Thnks for being there for me and I'm glad I could be there for you. Hahaha!

Yup.

Merry Christmas to all and Happy Boxing day too! ((:

And of course, Happy birthday to Jesus Christ. ((:

And its the 2nd day of christmas!!!

Shall blog about last Saturday's event soon.
Take care all! Enjoy your holidays (the last few days in fact)!

God bless
aylwin.

Thursday, December 22, 2005 { 12/22/2005 12:18:00 AM }

Jerry, Beansprout, Caine and me were conferencing last night.

About 3hours of crap talking. Hahaha. Glad we were able to do this. Hope we could do this maybe more often.

Today, woke up 8.30 and went to school for Meeting. Lasted for nearly 3 hours or more. Then after meeting, the 4 of us went to orchard. Showed them a nice place to eat. Cheap, fast and good. (:

After that, walked around taka and wisma. Looking around for gifts. But in the end, we didn't buy anything. Then we parted ways and i went to bean's house to play CS.

Then back here i am. Its a tiring day...

And i just realised i gotten a kinda weird blisters. The same blister spot has another blister coming out for the 3rd or 4th time man. Yeech.
And yeah, my knees and feet hurts from training yesterday. Thanks to the beautifully sharp pointy rocks on the ground.

Thnks for reading all and god bless!

everyone has something goin' on
and you also do have
but i think i'm glad i don't...
i hope (:

'aylwin-

Tuesday, December 20, 2005 { 12/20/2005 11:13:00 PM }

May i present you; the J-O-K-E of the century *GRINS* (((:

You all should know who eh? lol

Thanks for reading and god bless!
'aylwin-

Monday, December 19, 2005 { 12/19/2005 10:14:00 PM }

Current MOOD: A strong urge to murder beansprout. Right now.

And dang. My hands are cramped up and not because of those presents this time. Its because of BEANSPROUT again. We're punished by the inspectors and we have write 100lines of 'I will not leave any litter for my cadet inspectors to clear.'

Yeah, bean. thanks alot!!

And there're much more reason to killing him today. However, its kind of a long story so I don't wanna eleborate anymore.

Hahaha..kk. Thats all. Nights everyone

'aylwin-

Sunday, December 18, 2005 { 12/18/2005 09:03:00 PM }

Its been a long & winding journey
but i'm finally here tonight
picking up the pieces & walking
back into the light
into the sunset of the glory
where my heart & future lies
theres nothing like that feeling
when i look into your eyes
my dreams came true
when i found you, i found you, my miracle

if you could see what i see
that your the answer to my prayers
if you could feel the tenderness i feel
you would know it would be clear
that ANGELS BROUGHT ME HERE
standing here before u
feels like I've been born again

-Guy Sebastian. Angels Brought Me Here.

Now rushing the presents at the moment. Dang. Fingers are cramped up.

Things now are really alittle different but in a good way.

I've been feeling happy for now.

Celine sister is feeling great too.

Beansprout has changed his path to his main goal.

Jerry is sort of having a good track to jio-ing dianne.

Many things are now sort of better. And i hope things will be this way most of the time. (:

Thnks for reading and God bless all!

'aylwin-

Friday, December 16, 2005 { 12/16/2005 11:01:00 PM }

So I'm putting on my braces on 19th Jan and 26th Jan.

Shucks.

After dental, went home for a while then headed down to raffles place.
It was a long, hot, tiring, sweaty, scary trip.
Met her at China Square Central inside somewhere which i never been before.
Passed the aloe vera gel.
She gave me jasmine green tea. WOW. lol. Thnks a lot.
Talked abit wtih her then left to meet bean and caine at lavender.
Met at text-tile centre to play pool.
I totally lost all my touch into pool. =(
Later, played bowling. My touch is still with it. Hahaha. I trashed caine.
Went to caine's shop.
He had to work so we pei him a short while then me and bean left to buy food for bean's parents.
Took an MRT with him
I alighted at bugis to play Maximum tune.
I saw Evermeet and foxhound! Lol.
I played max tune and I'm already on the 80th stage! (WOOTS)
Then went home and packed my room.

Thats it for today. Not bad. Had fun and all. (:

Shoutouts:

Huiyi: HEY BOSS! hahaha. glad the gel helps. Take care and have a safe trip to china yeah? god bless! (:

Celine: SISTER! Glad we talked on the phone just now. Glad that everything is over for you. I'm really happy to hear you're all up and smiling. (:

Jerry: JERRY! FASTER COME BACK TO S'PORE LAR. DAMN SIAN LEH.

Bean: this blog sucks eh? Sia la. what to do? A sucky blog means a sucky guy what. still wanna ask the obvious. haha

I've been searching my soul tonight
and I think I did. (:

'aylwin-

Thursday, December 15, 2005 { 12/15/2005 11:08:00 PM }

Just watched Kung-fu Hustle on AXN. Simply damn hilarious. lol.

Alright. I must definately must blog about yesterday and today.

Yesterday, campcraft traning was cancelled but we all decided to have our own training. I trained my flag raising, S-swiping and pegging. And yeah, got myself a cut on my finger while doing it.

During the training, made a call to my junior. Caine and me gave him a bad scolding. Really really bad scolding.
Training ended early.
WE HAD A WATER PISTOL FIGHT! SWEE MAN! Hahaha... holding 4 guns in my hands and shooting away like mad. Then bean even used the small pastic bags as the bomb.

After the tiring fun, bean, caine and me went to eat long johns for early dinner at bugis.

Later, followed bean to his parent's shop. Really a nice place. Then we walked around...he got a haircut. Really stylish. I like it. (:
Later, went back home. and yeah, we all had real fun and talking cock.

--

Today;

Went to see the dentist at far east plaza. Cleaned my teeth. My sister also came to see him. After that, me and sis walked to tangs. Then to paragon and to cine. At cine, went to the iShop. Bought an iPod nano rubber thingy. Then went all the way to boonlay to find huiyi. However, I went to the wrong place. It was supposed to be at jurong east.
GREAT.
So went there. Saw her talking to a parent. After the long wait, she saw me. We decided to go for lunch at mcds. She treated me. Shucks. How nice can she be? Then we talked till 3+. She had to go back to do finish her charity thing. I left and then went to bean's place. Sat down there and do tarot cardin and watch tv. Mum picked me and thats the end of the day. (:

its a new start for ayl. (:

all i want for christmas is you. and you. and you. and you.
=P

'aylwin-

Tuesday, December 13, 2005 { 12/13/2005 09:03:00 PM }

1. Eugene Chng
2. Caine Liew
3. Jerry Tan
4. Audrey Han
5. Celine
6. Qin Zhen
7. Huiyi
8. Keith Tan
9. Poo Siang
10. Joshua Tan
11. Don Ho
12. Fergus
13. Joy low
14. Bernard
15. Jun Sian
16. Candy
17. Ivan
18. Joshua Leong
19. AJ (not someone i want actually but oh well)
20. Kar Wei

How did you meet 13?
Joy low? She's my teacher! A great teacher actually. She's okay and all. (:

What would you do if you never met 5?
CELINE? Damnit. I'll probably be meeting no one anymore. She's my sister too! Hahaha. Without her, I'll be condemned in life

What do you honestly think of 10?
Joshua Tan. Hahaha. he's fine. My squadmate and also my chocolate buddy. ((:

Have you liked 8?
KEITH? Hahaha...as a friend but he likes me. *shrugs*

What if 1 dies tomorrow, what is one thing would you like to do?
OMG. beansprout? DEAD?! but if really so, I'll spent the rest of his remaining time together and we will drink all the alcoholic drinks we never tried and have a good time together and I'll definately arrange a good restplace for him and a grand funeral.

Would 2 & 11 make a good couple?
No. Never. they're both guys. But they can be friends in terms of macho-macho.

Do you think 12 is hot?
Holy cow. Of all people. HIM. Well, he thinks he's hot. I think he's hot. Why? Because he's totally a lady's man! He knows many girls. Haha

Would 1 & 17 make a lovely couple?
NONO. They're also both guys. NO WAY. Or else I'll jump off my window right now.

Do you know any of 3's family members?
Jerry tan? My brother? Of course! Hahaha. His whole family. (:

On the scale of 1 - 10, how cute is 14?
Bernard? Gosh. He's a cute guy. Hahaha. Actually got girls surely find him cute also.

What you do if 4 just professed his/her undying love for you?
Audrey han? my boss? nono. She'll never-ever-forever do that to me. Its implossible. Hahaha. ((:

What lang does 19 speak?
'Sheet' language. thats what.

Who is 8 going out with?
Currently, no one. Thats what i know so far.

Would 18 & 5 make a good couple?
Errr. Never. Celine and Joshua leong cannot make it tgt. It will be a JOKE. And besides, they have their own aims already.

When was the last time you talked to 6?
Qin zhen? last night. yeah.

What is 18's favourite band?
No idea.

Do 4 have any siblings?
Yup. She has a younger sister!

Would you ever date 1?
Ehhhh... no way. We're brothers. We dont date for pete's sake.

Would you ever date 7?
Woo. That chiobu boss of mine? lol. Nah. I won't date her. Even if i have a chance, i may doubt so. So many guys are actually chasing her. LOL

Is 15 single?
Yup. He's single but not looking.

What is 3's middle name?
Dont need middle name I'll give you the FULL NAME. JERRY TAN PANG HAO. ((:

What is 10's fantasy?
Errr... probably hoping to be in chocolate land and will never to be fat at all? xP

Would 14 & 19 make a good couple?
NONONO. They're guys!

What school does 16 goes?
She goes to Hougang Secondary school (:

What school does 1 goes to?
my school: Acs br

Where does 9 live?
East side. some ulu part of that area.

Would you make out with 13?
SHUCKS. NO. She's my teacher...HELLLO???? *shrugs*

Are 5 & 6 bestfriends?
spot-on question. They ARE bestest friends. Hahaha

Is 20 older than you?
Nope. He's my junior. He's one year younger than me

Is 4 the sexiest, prettiest girl alive?
Damn, This question is putting me into a hard spot. Ok lar. Got guys chasing her one. Lots and lots and lots of guys. (:

Is 17 your ex?
NO. He's just my friend. And i never got into a relationship alright?

Do you ever see youself with 12 & 18?
Nope. But fergie and joshua can have lots of dirty crap tgt. haha

How is 2?
Caine liew?LOL; He's a walking chinese-idioms/proverbs dictionary. And he's macho and smart and he craps alot of stupid things. Hahaha (:

i want it to get it over the matter before school reopens.
but i keep getting a frustrating feeling in my soul
this is not good.

'aylwin-

{ 12/13/2005 06:41:00 PM }

Why is there so many things i want?

I want a navy blue western-lawn crumpler bag
I want a samsung Sgh-E760
I want a laptop of my own.
I want a rip curl leather wallet.
I want nice new clothes.

Damnit. SHUCKS MAN.

'aylwin-

Monday, December 12, 2005 { 12/12/2005 07:47:00 PM }

...Sigh...

I'm tired already. I don't know why. Everything seemed so...'unright' to me now.

Its weird.

Its strange.

Whats happening?

I'm just pure clueless.

Shucks...screw.

-

Last night went for a haicut. At least something decent but my back hair is shortened already. Abit sad but no choice.

Today, had Sana & Anti-drug course thing. Not as bad as the Police Knowledge course. This one is more relaxing and comfortable but we had to participate in this role-playing. Also need to pass a test to get the badge.

Surprisingly, Bean got a full marks in the test among over 10schools and there were only 3 peeps who gotten full marks. I slaute to him.

And another surprise thing is my group gotten the best role-playing performance. haha. It was fun. I was the drug addict. Hahaha... everyone had a good laugh and i too enjoyed myself arh. Just lost a hell lots of face. Heh.

Yeah. Thats it i guess. After dinner with bean, caine and berd...they went to 7-11. Then walked to newton. I was suddenly very quiet for a long while. Was thinking of so many things. Sigh

and yup, thnks very alot to bean's dad for always sending me back home. (:

Thnks for readi and god bless all.
'aylwin-

Saturday, December 10, 2005 { 12/10/2005 10:51:00 PM }

Now this really sucks

as in..REALLY SUCKS.

why did i suddenly feel so...

damn sad right now?

for no reason?

why why why?

aylwin wanna know why

someone please tell me why.

crap it

this do stinks.

SHUCKS-

like really

whats happening?

haiz

{ 12/10/2005 09:41:00 PM }

Just watched that 'Mulan' Movie on TV just now with Jerry on the phone. We were talking alot of stuff and laughing at the show at the same time. It was fun. We should do it more often.

My shoulders are killing me. My ass hurts damn bad. My legs are cramped and weak.

And of all days, the deep-heat just have to run out.
Can say tomorrow I'm surely going to cy after feeling my legs and body again.
CRAP

Today was night-cycling reckee. Totally a good exercise but I was really slow when cycling. Sigh

I'm tired and 'hao lei'.

AND I NEED A HAIRCUT. MY HAIR LOOKS SUPER SCREWED. SHUCKS.

i feel so....so.....so...*screams*

i wanna dance away from my troubles
i wanna listen to that music till i can't hear those problems
but all i think is that
i'm just dreaming again

Take care and god bless
'aylwin-

Friday, December 09, 2005 { 12/09/2005 08:42:00 PM }

Ok. Yeah, things were cleared up and all. Really glad about it.

Last night was really quite stressful for me or somehow. Yeah, been quite down actually and i don't know why I happened to be depressed. However, i must thank my brothers that halped cheered me up today and got me a little high again. Must really thank them alot. =)

And oh yes, I'm advertising for Huiyi's fundraising thingy for the elderly.

Lelong lelong!
Donate $10 and above and get an exclusive disney pen! But don't go for the pens. Go for the charity spirit in you (I'm talking nonsense again). Really, be a kind soul and show that you really care. Let me know if you're interested. Thank you. =))

Shoutouts:

Qin Zhen: Yeah, sorry (although I'm not supposed to say but heck) for putting you through so much misunderstanding. Still, at least I'm really glad we're still friends. =) Thanks for everything and sorry for the trouble caused. Sigh. I feel such a loser.

Huiyi: Heyy... sorry to put you into a misunderstanding too. And I'm really sorry to hear that you lost your camera at your Grad night. Real sucky but yeah, I totally understand that you must be pissed about it. So I'm fine with your attitude last night? Haha, cheer up alright? and I'm still trying to find you some kind souls to doante for your charity thingy. (:

Celine: Sister, cheer up alright? I really don't know how i can help you actually but only listen to you. Haiz... I really feel quite helpless and useless. I only can pray for you thats all. Take care yeah? (:

Beanie! : Brother! thanks for helping me out (i think). Hahaha. But yeah, thanks for being such a good brother and all. Really appreciate everything... But you promise me that you will not drink so much in the future anymore. I'll take your word for it. (:

Mousie! : Yes, hello there brother jerry. Too bad I couldn't join you all on tuesday. Real bummer to watch chicken little with you all. Hahaha. But I heard you sort of had a good time? Heh. And I want a christmas present! =P

Caine-nie! : Hahahahah... no more 'Cai-ne' liao. Happy or not? haha. And dude, please take care fo your hand alright? Now my hands are also getting abit scary after so much too-pid trainings. Take care alright? Hahaha. (:

-

it was a loop
a loop to the dream

'aylwin-

Monday, December 05, 2005 { 12/05/2005 08:45:00 PM }

why is it am I feeling really lifeless right now?
everything seemed to be nothing to me anymore.
Is as if something had taken the living spirit out of me.
I feel no longer high. No longer happy in a way.
I feel...down. Low. Destroyed.
Missing. Something's missing.
Whatever it is, life bites right now.
But I'm not blaming anyone but myself
No one but me...

-

Chattin with my brothers online now. Somehow they had lighten up my mood alittle. But I still got that dead-soul in me. Everything feels so...DAMNIT.

I'm off to malaysia tomorrow. Back on thursday night. I hope.

Shoutouts:

Huiyi: Hey... Yeah. Thnks for the advice and hearing me out. Really have to thank you. I'll just let nature take its course and I shall just...stay put? Yup. God bless you. (:

Im having this unexplainable feeling. And i pray it doesn't have to end it with tears.

'aylwin- : feeling ultra down

Sunday, December 04, 2005 { 12/04/2005 10:07:00 PM }

Totally not in the great mood to blog. Watch AneonFLUX or whatever that name was, with Qinzhen, Huiyi, Celine and Ivan. The movie is kind of disgusting. Nuff' said arh.

After movie, had NYDC. Celine insisted and so... they ate while me and Ivan stare. I finished everything up. And after stepping out, I eventually had a very funny feeling but I just walked on.

After much walking, i couldn't follow Celine all the way to pasir ris as mum already gave me a dressing down for not coming back yet. Celine n Ivan went off together while I escort Qin and my boss to their bus stop and I just walked (actually it was a run) straight home from there. I still had that feeling again. Felt like vomiting and all. But lucky i didn't. Sigh.

Yea. I'm already tired. I'm still under the medication for my throat and nose. And I still got the vomiting feeling.

Shoutouts!:

Celine: EHHH.. Sorry i didn't follow you to pasir ris. I really cannot do it. Sigh, don't be pissed off alright?

Huiyi: CHIOBU BOSS! Hahaha! Nice to see you again. Thnks for invitin me to the movie! Heh and I still owe you a sundae. :P

Qinzhen: HEYY!! Really must thnk you for treating me to the movie and invitin me too. hahhaha! I think I must still treat you for your haircut arh. All fair. (:

I looked at my hands,
which are fill of straw stars
and i asked myself.
Are they just pure bended plastics?
are they just wasted time?
Or are they my sincerity?
i don't know anything.
not at all

PS: No names will be added to my christmas list anymore and don't ask me who is who. Thnk you. (:

'aylwin-

Saturday, December 03, 2005 { 12/03/2005 07:29:00 PM }

I have decided a few people that is in my christmas list. Heh

1. The person is the name which starts with the letter: A
2. The shrimp
3. A super-super-super-super nice fellow
4. A fellow who likes beating people up
5. My sister
6. A Gut-less toot
7. The last person i 'befriended' with. Hahahaha!!!

I don't think this list is 'a few' anymore. Its ALOT. Hmmm.
Well, slowly figure it out. If you know who or know who you are, good for you. I've decided. (:
---

I am just nothing.
Nothing to nothing in your mind

'aylwin-

Friday, December 02, 2005 { 12/02/2005 11:48:00 PM }

I've been feeling really really stressed lately. So much things happened, thus... i realised i had been cursing and swearing alot lately. Haiz.

Whacked the mallet to my knee during training today. It hurts really bad. Not something you want to experience. And yeah, there's a really disgusting blood-clot on my left middle finger.
I think i need some nail polish to cover it. *Yucks* It just digust me.

And I complained to Caine that with this injured finger (caused by him), I cannot acheive many things in life and he assumed I'm talking too much crap. Haha. Yeah, got to lighten my mood up a little. Really felt sad in a way, today.

I'll end off the day with shoutouts, its been since i wrote shoutouts:

Mousie Jerry: Mouse... you can make it arh. I have some faith in you. (=

Cai-ne: Thnks to your wonderful kick on the huge sparse stick, and it eventually totally whacked at my poor finger.... I'm groaning in pain. Yeah caine, THNKS ALOT.

Beanie: Hello good brother? Hahaha. You owe me my rum-refresher...! and quit being so egoistic. Hahaha. =P

Audrey: Aud! hahaha....take care of your kneeS!! Haha. And i want my japanese sweeets!!! =P

Qin zhen: Heyy! sorry i couldn't make it for your church camp. Totally will miss my trainings. So sorry about it. And yup, you owe me a movie and I owe you a haircut. Hahaha! =))

Huiyi?: HAHAHAH!!! My other boss!; the chiobu-everyone-was-aiming-at!!! HAHAH! Sorry i ate your sundae ok? I promise to treat you arh. Hope you be happy then! Slave cannot make boss angry. Haha! =Ppp

Celine: SISTER. hope everything will go fine for you ok? Need help, let me know. I'm trying to do what i can. Hope everything will carry on as planned. (:

Thats all everyone. Take care and god bless!

'i'm slipping away. Maybe i shld take a little more time to get ready'

I feel 'rubbished-fied'. Haiz

'aylwin-