And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street

Saturday, January 28, 2006 { 1/28/2006 01:03:00 AM }

27th January 2006AC

This very day. I will never forget it. Me, eugene, caine and jerry. The 4 of us, will never forget this day. We are J.A.C.E.

This night, we blurted everything out. We poured everything out. We all drank to our hearts till it wanna burst. We broke down countless times. We screamed. We shouted. We swore and swore till you never hear those words before. We encouraged ourselves. We were there together.

I respect Eugene Chng Jun Sen
I respect Jerry Tan Pang Hao
I respect Caine Liew Xia Ri
These people, they respect me for who I am. I was so happy when I heard that we all respect each other and we're the best of brothers. Even I was from Normal (Academic), they still respect me and try not to compare results with me. I'm ultra glad for that. They really treat me the best.

No one and nothing can replace these 3 people.
Its been near going-to-be 4 years that we went through thick and thin together.
At the good of times, at the best of times, at the worst of times, at the fucked up of times...
The 4 of us were there for each other.

I seriously find that, I really praise the lord for letting the 4 of us know each other. I thought, what happened if I didn't know these people at all? I'll be just a damn loser out there. Therefore, they're really my best brothers. Not friends nor casual friends nor good friends nor best friends...we are the BESTEST OF BROTHERS.

Although we sometimes go out and one person is missing among the 4 of us, we joked saying that he is a bastard and pang seher. But no. Deep down in our souls, our hearts... we're still brothers. We won't hold grudges against each other.

Now, I shall explain why I respect these 3 people alot.

Eugene: This fellow is really I respect alot. He told us everything about his grandfather and family matters. How his grandfather set up the company, how the grandfather treated him... everything till the day he passed away. He became really sensible. He studied hard for his grandfather and family so that he could take over the grandfather's company.. I respected him alot for that. I promise, if i take business course in the near future... and such, I will say I'll go help him in that company. Because I respect his mother, father, uncles and aunties of how they still carry the business on. Eugene says, he will do it to carry on no matter what. I'm really glad for him. I support him, I admire him for this too. And he's now also willing to help us to anything. But I'm really...really...happy for just knowing him. Thats what matters to me. (: Thanks Eugene.

Caine: Caine, you have good morals and all. Don't feel down. The TOs are blind to see, the CIs are blind too. They just dont recognise your hard work and commitment. They're just stupid. However, caine.... We all respect you. You commit the most in the unit. Even the whole unit combine their efforts and commitment for the years they been through, its never near yours. the 3 of us know you do your work. You do the work for the other asshole but you still keep quiet. You're sick at times but you still come down for training. You injured your palms so much during the CC training, but you still come down. You even willing to spent time on your uniform alot, and no one is close to comparing to be as good as yours. Caine Liew, without you, the unit would probably have fallen. Only you can contribute good to the Drill Department. So please Caine, we all admire you. Don't feel sad. the 4 of us will make it through together. (:
Thanks Caine.

Jerry: Jerry, you're a really good brother... you did alot of things for us. But however, just like what eugene said to you... you have dianne. Treat her good and well... she's yours. So treat her good, no matter how jia lat she treats you back. So yeah, you have the power (in a way). And also, i really hope you can come back as CI. I need you. I don't know how am I going to work with the next batch of NCOs. So please, please come back as a CI with caine too. You two are the only one that can help sustain the unit standard. I also know you really put in your heart as a chairman. You helped out in many ways for the squad, the unit and everything. Jerry, so don't think all your efforts were just futile and thrown to the drain. You have done well. Keep up the good help and yeah, the 4 of us will make it through all storms and hurricane. (:
Thanks Jerry.

To the 3 of you people, till to this day... I never regret knowing you peeps at all. You guys are the ones that really help me be motivated and push myself in life. Thank you so much...to jerry, eugene and caine.

I hope you guys are reading this.
thanks again for everything. I sincerely appreciate it.

27th January 2006AC.
J. A. C. E.
Jerry Tan Pang Hao
Aylwin Gan Weiwen
Caine Liew Xia Ri
Eugene Chng Jun Sen
True Brothers Forever.

and take care to eugene during his trip to Bangkok. (:

Thanks for reading everyone.

aylwin.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006 { 1/24/2006 09:32:00 PM }

i don't mind bleeding my hands.
i don't mind cracking a bone.
i don't mind having the rope burns.
i don't mind blisters and nails bleeding.
i don't mind hurting my poor damn feets.

because i'm gonna put in my all. i really wanna do my best for the competition.
i want to get that trophy. and show the 0ther bastard school's unit that ACS(Barker road) NP unit is not someone to play around with.

Yea, I believe we can do it and make everyone happy and proud including ourselves.

CC TEAM - ACNP 2006.

tomorrow will be hell training. I don't care... I'll get through hell bcos Jerry, Eugene and Caine are gonna be there... =) We survived through thick and thin.

and oh yes, today I just cut my hair with bean again! But its kinda weird man. =/

Thanks for reading and god bless.

And now,
Ain't nothing else I can need

-aylwin. I FEEL LIKE DANCING

Monday, January 23, 2006 { 1/23/2006 08:40:00 PM }

Sarcasm...spastic remarks...pretendence.
I don't know. If you still labelled me as a backstabber, then so be it. I don't know what you treat me now. Probably some loser? I don't know either. Yes, I was told many stuff about you, but i somehow chose to ignore it and prefer to just put it behind me. However, you just seemed to be insincere towards me. Well, i don't care what you say about me or think me as, I know i still treat you as my friend.
You don't believe all these crap? Then so be it, I can't control you. Its your choice of what you wanna do or feel towards me. Be it a backstabber or a sister or an asshole or so on, I won't say anything. I still consider you as a friend because of the times you helped me out.
Anyway, you can continue being sarcastic towards me from now on, i'll probably treat you back being sarcastic too or either just a friend too.

You should know who you are. Thats all I can say. I'm not angry, I'm just feeling agitated.

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I SO DAMN LOVE BEING DAMN RANDOM AND RETARDED.
hahaha.
Caine and me were so feeling that way today. And yes, today training was really a damn big improvement. We're now able to hit below 10mins. But quality is now what we need to work on.
I'm feeling all shagged out and stuff, i still feel great because i find there's a chance in the competition. (:

Jerry: CAPTAIN TAN. We can make it (:
Caine: DUDE. CHILL. I know how you're feeling. But if you stay cool and calm, we probably can make it and do it well. ((:
Bean: You...hahaha. We shall rule the PA ground on that day. We shall be the best man! (:

Thnks for reading and god bless!
-aylwin

Wednesday, January 18, 2006 { 1/18/2006 10:20:00 PM }

AH SHUCKS LAR ):

I'm in the TEAM!

But...

I DONT THINK I'M GOING TO GET THE SERGENT RANK.

how sheety is this? SIGH.
All those hard work for nothing but dusty lousy furtile efforts.

-aylwin.

Monday, January 16, 2006 { 1/16/2006 10:41:00 PM }

Due to crazy and ranting demands... i'll now write up a longer post. Is that fine with you, mr Chng? (:

SATURDAY!
Saturday was a tiring day. I didn't get enough rest from friday. I was very tired and exhausted. But anyway, after training me, jerry, eugene and caine went to potong pasir and studied tgt. it was about 2hrs then later i recieved a phone call. Something came up so we sort of left early at around 4 plus.

Caine and bean went home, i went to ivan's place. Qinz was there too. We talked and i continued studying alittle. Then unexpectedly, miss tan came over with another friend. We talked abit then i couldn't take it and went down to play pool. I lost badly especially to qinz who was playing for the first time. I lost alot of pride and face for this. Hmmm... sigh.

Then qinz invited ivan, miss tan and me over to her place to eat dinner buffet. It was her brother's bday. Yeah...and we were play bridge for a thousand time. And how cld i forget? Qinz's super damn irritating little brother. Hoooooooooo boy. He was lucky i was in a tired and good mood or else i would have just give him one tight slap across the face... SERIOUSLY man.

Oh yeah, hy plays the piana kinda good and qinz plays really fancy. I really like the ones she played. One of them is 'Can you feel the love tonight?' and 'Canon in D. Gosh.. really nice. (:
and so, we played more bridge till 10plus so me and ivan went back already. Thats for tiring, enduring and sleepy saturday.

Sunday
I nearly woke up late. Lucky because my junior msged me so i woke up at 8plus. I got ready and went to wheelock at 12. Went to borders to read about dreams and tarot cards. Later, the USUALS came. But one had tuition so he was alittle late. As we waited, we went to walk around wheelock.
He finally came and we ate at nydc. And now, the peeps are blaming me for making them FATTER. DANG.... so much for being kind.
Soon, he had to leave for practice so i went to accompany the 2 queens to shopping. I didn't complained or gave that black face over the matter of shopping. I mean, shopping is NICE, man. Hahaaha... I don't really get sick of it. (:
After 3hrs of roaming and indecisive decisions, many things were bought. Haha. I didn't get anything... so we bid goodbye and i went to suntec to look for my shoes. But I couldn't decide which one to get. So i left first to meet my sister at taka. I finally bought my shoes at far east and got back home.
Great day. (:

Monday
Back to school. After school, i went to potong pasir with jerry to study. We studied for a quite some time, and most of the time.... I was badly distracted by one chio-girl? haha. Eye-candy i guess. Jerry was strong...better than me. Hahaa....he only looked at her once throughout the whole time. MR TAN, I SALUTE YOU. FAITHFUL GUY... rarr. I suck. hahaha

Then Mrs Tan came and i had to teach her POA. Sucky but it was just complicated. Then around 6plus, we parted our ways.

Thats all for now. (:
Shoutouts:

Eugene: BEAN. Thnks for everything. The things you said to me on saturday and such. You're right... I will remember what you said to me. ((: You take care too man... get well soon!

Mouse: MR TAN~, you're really good man. You can resist that girl but i cant. Actually, it wasn't my fault. The girl was just in front of me and you only took one glance at her for the whole time. JUST ONCE. Jerry, you're good. (:

Caine: SERGEANT CAINE. ((: We're promoted to sergeant liao! Jerry and the rest are now Corporals. MUWAHAHAHA. :P

Qinzhen: Wei, thnks for everything and all. Appreciated it and glad to hear that you enjoyed my mum's cookies! ((:

Huiyi: THAM WAI YEE... you GOOD. But yup, thnks for everything too. And you coped qinz' cookies from her...haha. Glad you like it too. (:

Everybody talks bad about somebody
And never realises how it affects somebody
And you bet it won't be forgotten
Envy is the only thing it could be

Take care and god bless!
-aylwin wanna dance alot right now

Thursday, January 12, 2006 { 1/12/2006 11:47:00 PM }

TOMORROW'S FRIDAY THE THIRTEEN.

today's 12th jan the thrusday. workpile is seriously at its sky-scraper top. stress is building up. cca selection is killing me. speech is taking me over. restless nights are increasing. and life is beginning to go into a baaaad turn.

so tomorrow is friday the 13. i wonder what other rubbish are going to happen to me.

i'm stressed.
someone...pls...help.
i beg you...

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i just don't learn.
i need a day..
to sort out my feelings.
just one day will do.

take care all and god bless
-aylwin.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006 { 1/11/2006 10:18:00 PM }

back from MUDDY-DISGUSTING training.

my shoes are in natural vegetation status. Inside and out.

I'm now tired too. Even inside of me is all lost-of-energy. Ayl is totally jaded-out...

Hmmm.

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my brother asked whether do i have a target right now.
i thought about it.
no clear definate answers came to my mind...

take care all and god bless
-aylwin.

{ 1/11/2006 12:38:00 AM }

Simalat Hari Raya Haji to all non-muslims and muslims! haha

The past few days were kinda bad in a way. Especially yesterday. Unexpected doings. Hmm..
But things were cleared up and ready to be back to normal, i hope.

Yesterday after school, it was spring-cleaning. Hurray! (whatever man). Jerry, bean and some other squadmates and plus me, were totally racking our heart out to clean the heck of our admin room. You have no idea how digusting and dirty the room was. Dead bodies, live bodies, HUGE dust bunnies... gosh, you'll just faint at the sight of those horrible stuff. Bet there's even an ant colony hiding somewhere.

I get to use the pathetic small hand vaccum! It was pathetic and seriously DAMN pathetic. But its kind of cool. Love sucking all those stupid bugs. Hahahah. And I'll just go 'haha! LOSER!'.

After nearly 3 - 4hrs of cleaning, it was my turn again. I had to go mop the room. After a long wait, we were done with the spring clean. Still, inspectors still said it was not exactly clean. I don't know what to say but I sure do know what to DO. -grunt

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Today, went to potong pasir mcds to meet jerry. Done english and maths hw/practice work. WE also had a talk about his love life and my no-life life. Hahaha. Yeah, it was a good talk.

Now, its back to school. Some public holiday. And there's training tomorrow. Aurgh.

Please pray for no rain for me tomorrow. Or else, I'm gonna suffer... really really BAD.

And i just received good news! :D Okie. Maybe one only, not so sure about the other one though. :( -grunts again

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That God blessed the broken road.

That led me straight to you

how i hope things will be the same, i guess.

thnks for reading and god bless.
-aylwin.

Monday, January 09, 2006 { 1/09/2006 08:00:00 PM }

I'm lost. I'm just totally...lost.

I don't know what to do now.

Sigh.

And workload is piling up.

-fantastic...

SIGH again.

aylwin.

Sunday, January 08, 2006 { 1/08/2006 01:26:00 AM }

come to think of it.

i finally know that... aylwin sucks!
haha...no. REALLY.

i'm stupid
i'm irritating
i'm useless
i'm lame
i'm dumb
i'm not good to helping people out
and i've got that face that everyone wanna slap, man.

haha. YES, really.

Sigh... =/

hahhaha! thats life...

A broken string, playing once more
My world, you’re not in it

take care all and god bless!
aylwin.

Friday, January 06, 2006 { 1/06/2006 10:06:00 PM }

SIGH..

i feel...not happy.

i don't know why either...

Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms

-aylwin.

Wednesday, January 04, 2006 { 1/04/2006 09:35:00 PM }

today was nuts training. and got literally bombarded badly by the inspectors.

haiz.

and i suddenly have a sense of loneliness?

Yeah. feel a little down.

time for poa mugging.

see you all and god bless.

they said when there's life, there's hope.
but where is the hope?
i've yet to really find it,
i guess.

'aylwin-

Monday, January 02, 2006 { 1/02/2006 11:06:00 PM }

School starts in about less than 12 hours!

GREAT HUH?

I MEAN....NEW CLASS...NEW TEACHERS...NEW BOOKS...NEW HOMEWORK...NEW ASSIGNMENTS...NEW CLASS TESTS...

SUPER HUH?! ((:

Wooooooooooooooooooo!

...

face it, i'm screwed. =(

good luck all. thnks for reading and God bless!
'aylwin-

Sunday, January 01, 2006 { 1/01/2006 11:39:00 PM }

2006.

Sweet old 16 soon.

N Levels.

Campcraft Competition.

Another step into NCO-ship.

And of course, its time for a new beginning and start. (:

And i just heard some good news.
' Merry Christmas and happy new year. yes :) '

'Nuff said. Its a great start i guess.

And Jerry, hope we will still spend time tgt as great brothers. The 4 of us shall cheong tgt to cheong your Os and my Ns. (: We have about a year left to be together like this.

And everyone... Happy new year! Its back to school!
Be preapred for pressure again from last year.

Therefore, 2006!; BRING IT ON!!!

God bless you all!
'aylwin-

{ 1/01/2006 11:47:00 AM }

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO JERRY TAN, EUGENE CHNG & CAINE LIEW! =D

And the list goes on:

Happy new year to AUDREY HAN!
Happy new year to Candy!
Happy new year to CELINE CHUA!
Happy new year to Dianne!
Happy new year to Don!
Happy new year to Fergus!
Happy new year to Ivan!
Happy new year to Joshua(s)!
Happy new year to JOY LOW (mdm)!
Happy new year to Jun Sian!
Happy new year to Kar Wei!
Happy new year to KEITH TAN!
Happy new year to QIN ZHEN!
and last but not least,
Happy new year to THAM WAI YEE / TAN HUI YI!

Sorry if I had not listed down your names but yeah, Happy 2006 year to you all out there!
Its a new year, start things anew and afresh! ((:

Shall blog about mini countdown from last night soon.

Thnks for reading all and god bless!
'aylwin-