And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street

Wednesday, January 23, 2008 { 1/23/2008 06:48:00 PM }

Happy 2 Months Anniversary, Meilani Hundarto! :D

Thanks for the simple gift. (: Its not lame and I like it (:

Loving you, dearest pancake ! (: <3

Monday, January 21, 2008 { 1/21/2008 04:11:00 PM }

24th January !
Its confirmed !

Okay. Now I needa quickly go pack my room !

Saturday, January 19, 2008 { 1/19/2008 02:16:00 AM }

PEACE !

phew :D

Thursday, January 17, 2008 { 1/17/2008 08:09:00 PM }

Changes. The only constant thing in the world.
This is so right.

Anyhow.

I guess I've been a disappointment to people around me. I've not been a good friend.
Sigh.
I guess this is what i've been doing all this while.

Right at the moment... I just feel like things will be much slower and things to be taken at a slower pace.
Its like I cant handle the overwhelming stress and pressure.

Bel, I apologise for the certain actions i've done but I didnt intend things to turn out this way.
But I don't blame you anyway. Because there are some things I just feel and dont want to express it over many things. I just intend to keep it to myself.
Importantly, I see you as my real good friend and dont want to cause any hurt to you and anyone else.
But I still did it in the end.

This sucks.
I suck.

Dots.

***

I shall listen to more christian songs. Man. They make me feel better and think clearer :)

On a happier note;

Happy 62th Birthday to my PaPa ! :D
May all his wishes and dreams come true!
Stay healthy and may he has a nice day ! ^^

And his reply was his wish is wanting me to stay healthy and grow up being a wise man (:

WHA LAU. So touching :P

Nvm. (:

''My God. Is Big.
So Strong.
So Mighty.'' ((:

{ 1/17/2008 12:02:00 AM }

Maybe I shall be clear of something arh.

I admit that I don't PREFER girls or probably my girlfriend as well, to wear make up and nail polish and stuff.

BUT...

It doesnt mean that I am FORCING or NOT ALLOWING to use them. I only meant it on make up and nail polish lar.

I shall elaborate more on this arh because I was getting quite flamed by people for this.

For my point of view, I think girls should be glad of how they look and stuff. Which means, natural beauty.
And yeah. I read up some place before, that applying make up is not very good and healthy for the skin. So thats why I'm concerned over that.

HOWEVER...

At the end of the day, it is everyone's choice to choose what they want to do to themselves. I will not force it or anything. It is not anyone's demands. It is just preferences.

But if you're talking about tatoos or something invloving a life changing thing.... then it is another scenario.

***

Relationships. The thing that many adults discourage us young children to get involved.

Relationships. The thing that will make the parties having to learn to sacrifice and accept many changes.

Changes. The only constant thing in the world.

I admit that I've neglected my friends alot. Especially my 3 bestest friends. One of them scolded me that he hasn't seen me since December 28 2007. The day meilani comes back. I regret that I have neglected them and other people as well.

I realised that... friends are just as important as well. I remembered it but it was at the back of my head. I'm truly sorry to my friends. People like eugene, caine, jerry, christabel, huizyi and others. I figured that mei also had neglected her closest friends as well while trying to adapt to her new JC school life, studying for her work and sustaining the relationship with me. I feel the pressure.

I know that I cant do anything to help her with the school but only continue to give her the unconditional love since the start of our relationship and the true support we've been giving each other since last year.

Relationship. Changes one's lifestyle.

I admit one thing. I'm pressurized. And I'm trying to fight it. Trying to feel more relaxed. I know that... at some point of time during a relationship... both parties... wants their own space for a moment and do their own things. Its like some breathing space and then... we get back again. I don't care if you don't agree with my theory or 'method' but I learnt this. It is so true.

Relationship may be something that will award you happiness and the feeling of being loved and so on. But it is tiring at the same time.

Sustaining a relationship. Key ingredient: Sincerity.

Sustaining is without a doubt, not a totally smooth ride but sometimes, it is worth the ride.

It can strengthen one's emotions and character and learn a thing or two (:

This is probably the beginning of my expression ? Well. Next time I may talk more. (:

Thursday, January 03, 2008 { 1/03/2008 12:56:00 AM }

Happy belated New Year 2008 !

-

I feel totally irritated with myself.
I felt bad.
I feel so wicked and mean for not being there for meilani when she needed me.
Sigh.

I'm really sorry I was too late my dear. Sigh. ):

I'm tearing already. I shall stop here. Sigh.

I hope you forgive me.