Aylwin Gan
23.04.1990.
Ngee Ann Poly
ex ACS(BR)
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I'm lame. I love Squash.
Has the love for Running
Shoe-addict
Nachos and Mac&Cheese for life

An ordinary person who hopes that one day he could open a cafe of his own. A well-known cafe where it serves great food, being friendly with everyone and making new friends. But hey, can't a guy dream? hahaha


This is my 2nd dream. I want to earn enough money to help the organisations that are fighting against Aids and HIV in Africa. I'll go on a mission trip to Africa and help the people too and I'll show them that there is at least 1 guy out there among the 6 billion people on the earth that cares for them.


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Sunday, May 25, 2008 { 5/25/2008 12:57:00 PM }

I know it hurts.
I feel the hurt.

I spilled everything out.
But instead of feeling good, I actually felt even worst.
I've never hurt someone this bad before.
Its like, just shooting bullets at someone out of nowhere and no reason.

Even if you don't hate me, I feel I'm hating myself more.
However, I think I rather take the hatred people have against me rather I have it against you.

6 Months.
I've never reached that far before.
6 months.
You taught me ways of having to love someone unconditionally.
6 months.
You gave me happiness and happiness that lets me cherish it because its from you.
6 months.
Actually.... seeing you happy, makes me feel happy as well.
6 Months.
Phone calls. Messages. Talks. No book is probably enough to keep it all in. Only my mind is enough.
6 months.
The times we spent together. Dinners. Lunches. Movies.

My gosh. It just goes on and on.

(sheet. I'm like blardy crying again now)

Meilani, I'm just so sorry.
I don't know if the sorry was enough.
But I say it at the bottom of my heart,
I really thank you for what you have brought and given me these 6 months.
Whatever the outcome soon, I hope it would be a good one for the both of us.
Maybe I just need time to myself.
Maybe I just feel I'm not good enough for you.

But thank you. I'm really grateful to you. You were still an amazing girlfriend to me.
I'll honour my promise... I won't leave you. Like what you told me as well.
The greatest loss to me is that I lose you entirely.

Seeing you happy and making you happy as much as i could, its a joyous deed for me. Its like, I really love to see you being very happy. I hope I've done a good enough job fulfilling so.

(I feel like a hateful bastard now)

Sigh.

"Happy 6 Months to you! From, Ice cream. I love you, always."

I'll miss your hugs so much. :(
I'll miss you. <3


Thanks to friends who were there for me. You know who you are.
I wish things won't have to end like this.